Reasons Why You May Be Afraid Of Intimacy (And How To Fix It).

Reasons Why You May Be Afraid Of Intimacy (And How To Fix It).

It was only recently as I embarked upon a new relationship that I realised actually how terrified of intimacy I really am. It was an incredible revelation to me. I had been quietly yearning for a beautiful and nourishing relationship for quite a while, but as soon as it arrived I wanted to go running and screaming for the hills. Then I realised that all of us have a desire for intimacy deep in our heart and soul, but if you fear it, despite your best efforts, probably do everything you can to push it away. Over and over, you find yourself getting stuck in a game of tug-of-war: “Come close, go away.” It becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, and the ultimate act of self-sabotage.

But why? Why would you be afraid of something you so deeply want and yearn for? After all you want to be deeply seen, understood, and truly known right? You yearn for the delicious joy of connection, for the exquisite flow of love that occurs between two open hearts that profoundly “get” each other. There is nothing more blissful and enlivening than intimacy. On the other hand, there may not be anything scarier either.

I truly believe this fear is largely shaped by our childhood and upbringing. Take a minute to think about when you were growing up, the times you felt very close to someone — a parent, a sibling, a friend.

  • Did something (or things) happen that hurt you?
  • Did the person you loved reject you with anger, judgments, criticism, or withdrawal?
  • Did the person leave you or die?
  • Was the person you loved controlling, engulfing, or smothering?
  • Did you have to give yourself up to keep them?
  • Is your fear the fear of losing another person you love, or of losing yourself in a close relationship?

As a child, you may not have received any guidance on how to lovingly or healthily manage rejection and engulfment from your parents or caregivers. But it’s never too late to learn.

All of those fears are substantial enough to potentially make you freeze you as soon as you experience romantic connection. The feelings that come up are something that you cannot control or avoid, but you can do things to help overcome them before you sabotage too many wonderful relationships.

A fear of intimacy is not the actual issue here; It’s the fear of an insurmountable loss.

If you don’t truly believe yourself capable of recovering after the loss of a loved one, you become very vulnerable to losing yourself. And that is terrifying enough. Avoidance of intimacy might seem like the wisest way to minimize the risk of getting hurt, the temptation to crawl back under your lonely rock and hide seems a much easier option. But when you do that, an even deeper heartache results. Intimacy is one of the most beautiful soul deepening experiences in life.

Becoming strong enough to love means becoming strong enough to lose love — and to know that you will be okay.

So, how do you develop this strong self? This version of you who knows, without a doubt that you’re capable of surviving loss and rejection? This happens, naturally, as you take steps toward learning to love yourself.

These six steps can help guide you through that process

1. Allow yourself to feel the pain.

Feelings are informational, letting us know whether we are loving ourselves or abandoning ourselves, or if others are being loving or controlling.

There are some physical things you can do to tune in with your feelings. Start with mindfully following your breath to get present in your body, and compassionately embracing all feelings. That way you can move toward your feelings rather than away from them with various forms of self-abandonment, such as staying focused in your head, judging yourself, turning to addictions to numb out, or making someone else responsible for your feelings.

2. Learn from those feelings and take responsibility for them.

In inner bonding, there are only two possible intentions in any given moment:

-To protect against pain, avoiding responsibility for it, through various forms of addictive and controlling behavior.

-To learn about what you’re doing or thinking that may be causing your pain — or what may be happening between you and another person or situation — so that you can move into taking loving action on your own behalf.

Invite the loving presence of your higher self into your heart, and consciously open to learning about loving yourself

3. Learn about your false beliefs.

Step three is a deep and compassionate process of exploration — of learning about your beliefs and behavior, and about what is happening with a person or situation that may be causing your pain.

Ask your feeling self — your inner child — “What am I thinking or doing that’s causing the painful feelings of anxiety, depression, guilt, shame, jealousy, anger, loneliness, or emptiness?” Allow the answer to come from inside — from your feelings.

Once you understand what you’re thinking or doing that’s causing these feelings, then you explore with your ego-wounded self to understand the fears and false beliefs leading to the self-abandoning thoughts and actions.

If you feel lonely, heartbroken, or triggered over someone, ask yourself what is happening between you and another person that is causing these painful feelings.

4. Start a dialogue with your higher self.

It isn’t as hard to connect with your higher guidance as you may think. The key is to be open to learning about loving yourself. The answers may come immediately or over time. They may come in words or images or in dreams. Listen to your thoughts and intuition, when your heart is open to learning, the answers will come.

5. Take the loving action learned in step four.

You’ve opened up to your pain, moved into learning, started a dialogue with your feelings, and tapped into your spiritual guidance. In step five, you take the loving action that, over time, heals the shame, anxiety, and depression that have been the result of your self-abandonment.

Sometimes people think of “loving yourself” as a feeling you have to conjure up. A good way to look at loving yourself is by emphasizing the action, “What can I DO to love myself?” rather than “How can I FEEL love for myself?”

6. Evaluate your action.

Once you take the loving action, you check in to see if your pain, anger, and shame are getting healed. If not, you go back through the steps until you discover the truth and loving actions that bring you peace, joy, and a deep sense of intrinsic worth.

Over time, you will discover that loving yourself improves everything in your life — your relationships, your health and well-being, your ability to manifest your dreams, and your self-esteem. Loving and connecting with yourself is the key to being able to love and connect with others and create loving relationships.

Loving yourself is what enables you to raise your frequency and co-create with spirit. Loving yourself is the key to creating a passionate, fulfilled, and joyful life.

When you heal your relationship with yourself and become strong enough to give and receive love, you will experience the incredible joy of intimacy.

Once you’ve completed this process, you’ll no longer be crippled by fear of rejection or engulfment. Self-love creates the emotional safety net you need to keep your heart open to love and intimacy — even when it’s scary.

Do you have a fear of intimacy or do you know someone who does? How has it affected your life? Please share your stories below.

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